For me, one of the worst parts about having lupus is its unpredictability. I woke up feeling pretty good and decided to attack a few things on my eternal to-do list. After I folded laundry, I made lunch. I was having a perfectly lovely and lazy day on the couch. I spent two hours catching up on “Scandal” and spent an hour more watching old episodes of “Designing Women”. When I got up to get some water, my body was completely different. There was a heavy and sharp pain in my arm and leg and the rest of my body felt completely worn out. The exhaustion was as thick as tar. I trudged my way to the kitchen and then couldn’t remember why I went in there. I decided it was time for a nap. Somehow, I made my way up the steps, though it felt like I was pulling one of those anvils from the Roadrunner cartoons behind me. When I woke up, I felt worse than when I went to sleep. A headache now accompanied all the other pain I was experiencing.
When I woke up this morning, I was energetic and optimistic about what I would accomplish today. As, I struggle to get to sleep tonight, I’m fighting the pain and depression and just hoping that I’ll feel better tomorrow.